Ohh, this version is even funnier!

Turned on some music to start my day, I lost myself in a familiar song , I closed my eyes and I slipped away ...

"More than Feeling" by Boston (though, owing to my love of Scrubs this is done Scrubs-style

I've been listening to A LOT of music lately. A LOT. Like,my 4yo can sing half my songs and is currently screaming at me to TURN IT UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP. As you do.

So the last few days everything I have touched has turned to shit.Literally. I've managed to block my kitchen sink, have to salvage a friendship after misunderstanding, dealt with needing new tyres for my car and just being an emotional mess.

I just had a mini-breakdown last night. I justhad had a crap day, compounded by a crap decision I'm just over it all.

Don't we all get days... weeks... months... years like that?

So crank up the music and let the good times roll!

What are you waitin' for... spread your wings and soar!

The ever lovely Christina and "Soar".

I've been a bad blogger, haven't I? Thank you Miss Jess for the love on your blog and welcome my new follower!

So what's been happening... well a little has changed since that last post. I'm finding now that I am single, quite a few guys in my life are now coming forward.. which honestly is just crazy. Comments like new look is stunning... but you always were gorgeous... It's all just a bit weird for this girl!

Honestly.. wouldn't it weird you out as well?

So I guess you are wondering why I titled this what I did...

Well, one of those men is a really, really good, long-term friend of mine. Who is really quite cute ; ) So, I'm going to hope on a plane to Sydney in a few weeks. The what are you waiting for part - well, I've always wanted to see Sydney! An added bonus is that I will get to finally meet him in person, which I am really excited about. Like school-girl giggly excited about.

Of course, this will require major organisation.. I don't have a suitcase and I'll have to go shopping and ditch the mumsy clothes...

How does that happen to us? We become Mums and for a majority of us, we start living in track pants and loose t-shirts. That, of course, is on the days we can bother getting dressed. I did personally have a PJ day yesterday... I had no where to be so why bother? ; )

I just cant add up the sums to find the damage we've done

Since it's my blog, and I make the rules, I figured that each post would be song titles.

I came up with this brilliant idea yesterday as I was listening to music and singing at the top of my lungs. Yeah, I'm crazy like that.

So this blog is themed around "Damage" by You Am I. I LOVE me some You Am I. I saw them live and I love their vibe, their sound and their songs.

My MIL rang last night, and it got me thinking about how this is affecting not only us, or the kids, but every one around us. Our friends and extended family all are involved in this as well. Through being amazing support, listening, but also trying to comprehend what happened, and what happens next.

I must admit, I didn't really think much outside trying to help the girls through this. I mean, they should be the priority, but it's bigger than that. Though, mainly I still worry about the girls. It's so hard to explain to them why things are the way that they are, and hold my 3yo while she cries from wanting to know why Daddy doesn't live with us anymore : ( That part sucks so hard, and I can't seem to get my own words out...

So if anyone stumbling across this has any ideas, btdt advice or even some kind words, so appreciated!

In other news the baby and I were alone last night while he sister went to stay at her Dad's. I go to pick her up soon,and she sounded so happy on the phone last night, so hopefully this is a thing that can happen more often.

The first post

Well, we all have to start somewhere... right?

So this is the first post. The one that is supposed to start with the backstory and you go from there. Well, what can I say?

I had met my husband in HS, and was best friends with his sister, although we didn't start dating until after I graduated. A few years later we married, and had two beautiful girls. They are now almost 4 and 2.

We didn't always have the perfect life, and one of our children has special needs, but I thought we were happy.Until almost 2 months ago when I got a call that would change my whole world - that my husband was leaving me.

I was devastated. Angry. Cried a lot.

But now, I'm in a place of acceptance. He made a lot of decisions that I didn't agree with, both in our marriage and now that he's left it. He started seeing someone almost straight away and that, again, is his choice.

So my focus now is on my beautiful girls, and me... and getting my life on track.

Don't get me wrong, it's bloody hard some days not to want to wish for my "old" life. But I'm making a new life. That may include someone else, or maybe not. Not up to me, if it's meant to be it's meant to be!